Monday, May 5, 2008

Arrival or Departure

So many of you have asked, “how’s it going?” “How are you making it?” Others have been even so sweet to encourage saying, “I don’t know how you are handling all of these changes so well?” Some have looked at us like we have fallen off our rocker and still others have said the kindest words my soul has ever heard which are, “we feel like God has brought you here just for our family.” Often I am finding that if for no other reason than that, has been what has gotten me through my day. I did the blog “rolla coasta” which is still my state of being. I am just learning another terminology to describe my present mental wellness or lack there of, arrival or departure, either/or please. satan has recently chosen a new line of offense for my personal attack. Most of the things he is using these days I would have said I had mastered, conquered, learned as truths and moved forward. Some of you seasoned Christians are laughing already. My cry to the Lord today is I would like to either “arrive” in my walk while on planet earth or “depart” plant earth as quickly as possible. EITHER/OR PLEASE! See, more and more I am developing proof for my patented bumper sticker that reads “Christians aren’t perfect, we are just forgiven”. I am morbidly anticipating departure with a whole new excitement and desire. A friend and I were talking today about how as new Christians it sounded a little odd to long for Heaven, a place where worship and praises never ceased. For those of us who like a little variety in life, that sounds odd at best and not so exciting at worst. I mean on earth there are so many great things, marriage, kids, jobs, toys, vacations, hobbies, the list goes on and on. So what has changed my mind, changed my excitement for this thing called Heaven, well what has changed my mind is honestly this thing called earth. So filled with disappointments, so filled with failure and picking ourselves back up by the boot straps (whatever that means) and starting over. Can’t we just move along with things, can’t we just go on ahead to our true “Home” and finally enjoy “arrival”. See, in Heaven you won’t say anything stupid, you won’t have to forgive anyone, no one will let you down, no worries, no hurts, no breakdowns, no break-ups, no waiting, no temptations, no patience, none needed. Maybe it’s not what I will have in Heaven that honestly excites me the most, maybe it is what I won’t have that really causes me to “long”. I am certain God’s glory should have been more than enough, but with my selfish nature, it still seems to be about me. Please don’t go around saying “I’m a little worried about Kelly. I think she may have flipped for sure this time.” I honestly believe I am finally “getting it”. See I use to buy into the lie that this world had something to offer. Now I am finally realizing, that alone is the greatest lie of them all. So why doesn’t Jesus come on back, why is He putting me through this thing called life that often resembles unwanted torture. His Word is very clear on this one, in 2 Peter 3:9 the Bible says, “The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.” Is God waiting on you? Is the whole rapture being postponed in Heaven because God is up there pleading your acceptance so that you can join the greatest thing this world does have to offer once He arrives. If so, and know that I mean this from the bottom of my heart, join now. Stop the wait, we have a party to attend and I am certain He wants you there!

1 comment:

diana said...

Jereme and Kelly, It is so great to see that cute Cross. He is adorable. I wish FBC PDO could've had him in our program. I know you are great parents. May God bless you as you raise that little gift. I love the book baby wise too. I don't know what I'd done with out it. Scheduling is awesome. Diana