Hey guys, just a real quick update/prayer request. Tomorrow Cross and I will be flying out to Tennessee for a few days. My dad is having some health problems and my mom is having a minor eye surgery so we figured we would just hit the road and visit for a few days. Please pray for us as well fly alone without daddy and please pray for daddy as he is left behind for the week without his family. We hope to be at Grace on Sunday for a little reunion!!!!! Love you all!
Saturday, March 29, 2008
I’ll just be honest with you guys and tell you what I feel like the Lord is laying on my heart. I think if Jesus could (well I know He could, I should say if He would) come down and look us square in the eyes He would say something very similar to the things He said over and over in the Bible to disciples, followers, and strangers a like. In a nut shell, I feel like Jesus would say “you guys just don’t get it”. If I have learned one thing after coming out here is that we all (not just me and not just you, all of us) put Jesus into this tiny box. A box similar to a piece of décor that we have sitting around the house. It looks nice, but serves no practical purpose and at the end of the day, even though we like the looks of it, it does nothing more in our lives than collect dust. Now please hear me say I am the first to admit guilt in this department. God is showing me over and over that He wants more and more of me so that I can experience and glorify more and more of Him. So with this realization I have asked God, “show me, show me how to get rid of this tiny box and allow You to be the ruler of my universe”. I felt led to start my search of a “bigger” Jesus in the book of Acts. I feel like God is showing me that Acts, the book in the Bible that outlines the details after the ascension of Jesus, is the perfect place to see how we are to relate to God. See, we too are living after the birth, burial, resurrection, and ascension of our Savior. It plainly says in Acts that God “told” the people what to do. It gives detail and insight on the Holy Spirit. I am learning so many things as I read. I am reading as though I have never looked at these passages before because I am finely reading them through the eyes of someone in the same spiritual timeline. Sure we have cars, electricity, and the all important cell phone in this 21st century, but spiritually we are on the same page as the people in Acts, post ascension, pre return of our Savior. So, my question is, how small is your box? I can guarantee that none of us are experiencing Jesus on the level that His death intended. So I challenge you, open up a Bible and join me in Acts. Make notes, dive in, but most importantly, ask God to show you where He desires you to start spreading the walls of your box. My guess is that until we fall face first at Jesus’ feet either at His return or at our departure, we will all have a box to some degree, but I certainly believe that in this case, bigger is always better!
On the journey with you,
On the journey with you,
Friday, March 21, 2008
Hello friends! I am BACK!!!!!! Well, not indefinitely, but for now I am basking at a local coffee shop enjoying a decaf, nonfat (with whip, just like a woman) mocca frapachino (sp?). My child is fast asleep and my sweet man let me slip away and get some me time and I may never go home! :) I am not going to lie, these past few weeks have been full of ups and downs. No home phone, no internet, no cable, and no car. I don't know how those people in the "old days" did it! I have felt closed in and at times lonely, but I can certainly see how God is using this time to make sure my priorities are in line. I feel like He is showing me that once I take good care of my man, then my darling little guy, my home (which entails a million things from cleaning to bills, from groceries to doggy food), His temple/my body, and most importantly my relationship with Him, THEN we will add in the distractions. That is really what most of these so called "luxuries" have become for me. I am on the phone instead of cleaning. Cross is fussing and instead of enjoying a soothing rock, I am too busy trying to blog. I will be the first to admit that order needed to come back to my life! With order comes so many blessings and tonight is certainly one of them. It is funny how our perspective changes once we have been stripped of what we consider necessities. The internet is just a thing we have, now this special "online" time feels like a glorious gift from God. A friend to call was something I totally took for granted, but this week a chat with a new friend here felt like the most glorious gift from God. I am wondering if there will ever be a time when I don't have to be stripped to become thankful?? Probably not, at least not all together. God has proven so faithful during this season, just when I thought I was at my breaking point my husband takes me on a date. Just when I feel as lonely as one can get, God ordains a visit from our special BB (Jeremy's mom and YES I love my mother-in-law to death). Just when I feel like I have no social life, one visit to a coffee shop and I am the happiest gal in town. Today as Cross cried and I had no clue what I was doing as a parent I felt so defeated and two minutes later as he squealed with laughter I didn't care. I don't know a lot right now, but I know I serve a good God who wants nothing but the absolute best for me and I feel humbled and honored this "Good Friday" for the horrible death He incurred so that I could enjoy this life. Despite all of my disgusting sin, despite feeling like this life certainly isn't all it is cracked up to be, despite every low, because of this Good Friday and this coming Easter I can sit here and enjoy a personal, real relationship with the Creator of the Universe!!!!!! Now that is a glorious gift from God. I pray for each one of you that this Easter is so much more than bunnies and an Easter egg hunt. Those things are awesome, but please don't go your whole life settling for these Easter gifts and miss the most glorious gift of them all, Jesus! He wants to know you, He wants to interact with you daily. He wants to be your friend! That is how I am making it here in new town, new mom land. My Best Friend is still inside my heart! He is right where He was when I was in Clarksville, He is right where He was when I was a little girl in Winchester Tennessee and asked Him to come live there! If Jesus isn't your Savior, if you don't know that you know that you will spend eternity in Heaven with Him when you pass, please don't dare go another Easter season settling for some bunny. Go find a local, Biblical church this Easter Sunday and tell someone you want something more, you want the Savior! Get the most glorious gift of them all, get your new Best Friend!
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Hey everyone! I really wanted to name this blog "Have you ever" because have you ever seen such a handsome little guy? I think not!!!!!!!! The Bullock Family would like to wish all of you a Happy Easter! Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice so that we can have this bundle of joy!!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Hey everybody - A friend of ours, Shawnna Brittingham, is having surgery today to remove cancer the doctors have found in her body. Please pray for her doctors as the perform the procedure and for her as she has to recover. Also pray for her family because she has three beautiful little girls. Thanks.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Pictures it is and even home movies!!!!!!! I am very impressed with myself might I say! I am turning into a real tech queen! :) Cross is now officially 3 months old! Also, tonight is Jeremy's first time actually speaking, preaching, teaching, whatever you want to call it, so please be praying for him! Love you guys and we miss you lots! J, K, Snick, and Cross
Monday, March 3, 2008
Well friends, this week has certainly erred on the side of the pitiful I'm afraid. It all started Wednesday, our precious little bundle of joy who in all seriousness really is a great baby went from his normal, predictable self, to a screaming disaster. It was his tummy and it broke my heart. With patience, we worked through the day hoping it would pass (literally) and Thursday would be a new day. Well, Thursday came along and with excitement and officially having a stable routine (after what has felt like months of chaos) house cleaning a lunch date were on the agenda. Unfortunately, the screaming continued and what once sounded like a fun outing turned into a nightmare of fear. Lunch was canceled and I brushed it off as the little one just needing a day at home and it certainly couldn't hurt for mommy as well, so home we were. As you can guess, the spiral continued downward. The screaming worsened over the weekend and then a sinus infection arose to boot. Jeremy would ask a once confident mommy, what does he need and by yesterday through a laugh that covered a million tears I said "I have no clue what he needs" and deep down inside I was thinking "just shut him UP!". The book that I had referred to that had made me that confident parent was now burried under a stack of boxes, I have no clue who or where to find a doctor in town to get me well and I had finally started a workout routine that now had to be put to the back burner as if being on the back burner for these past few months wasn't enough, the pity party goes on and on. Then it hit me, my precious friend who is now enduring chemo treatments in preparation for her surgery who takes care of 3 sweet baby girls and still manages to call me several times a week would not be encouraged by my pity party thats for sure. I had two choices, I could either wallow in my sorrow (not such an attractive way to go might I say) or I could step up to the plate and make my life what I wanted it to be, not perfect, but bearable, NO, not bearable either, enjoyable!!!!!!!! A few months ago one of my favorite teachers said this line and I'll never forget it, YOU CAN EITHER BE PITIFUL OR POWERFUL, BUT YOU CAN'T BE BOTH! How profound. That line had rang in my ear hundreds of times as I sat behind my desk at Hope Pregnancy Center wondering what on earth to do, but now in my stay at home mom days, it seems to be equally applicable. I have a choice and the choice I was making at the moment seemed to have everyone around me feeling despair. Powerful it was, but where to start. Well, first, the house was a disaster and dinner needed to happen. Second, I think Jeremy would have dug through an entire storage shed for my book by that point so he ever so graciously got to work on that task. Cross is a little guy and he can't make things better so mommy just had to step up to the plate. So today, powerful it is, we are back on our schedule and already I can see changes in Cross and whether it is him or my new feelings of sanity, I'm not sure, but who cares. I am going to suck it up and go to a walk in clinic and be thankful it is just for a cold and not a chemo treatment and most importantly (at least in my book) I'm calling around for a mother's day out program to get a break which I may not "deserve" but why on earth wouldn't I take. Are you feeling pitiful today? I know the feeling, my Bible Study was so appropriately describing how sometimes it is not major catastrophes that steal our joy, sometimes it is just life. Join me today and let's be powerful. I think that is the side Christ will bless!