Sunday, December 9, 2007

Beauty for Ashes


I don't know if the Lord has ever "tricked" you. Not at all using tricked in a bad sense, maybe got you to do something He wanted you to do with a motivator that caused you to tackle something you would normally have said "no way" to! That has happened to me this past month. I won't go into the whole long story, but basically I have found myself tackling a Bible Study that I never thought I would have the energy (emotionally, physically, or spiritually) to complete AGAIN. That is the key, again, I did Breaking Free by Beth Moore in 2003 and it literally took me through a 12 week counseling session that changed my life forever. See when you come from as much bondage and baggage as I do, hearing the Lord's love and grace and most importantly freedom is almost more than one person can bare. I couldn't believe He hated all the things that were done to me and the things I had done to myself, just as much as I did, no really so much more. Well, I am a brand new mommy and on week 6 of the study for the second time, and wouldn't you know it, God had a perfect plan for what week 6 would bring to my new mommy soul. Isaiah 61:3 ...and provide for those who grieve in Zion-to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor. Because of my past, I never dreamed I would be able to have children, but my God has bestowed on me a crown of beauty instead of ashes. This week that grace has brought me humbly to my knees, may He receive all the splendor!

3 comments:

wbray said...

i love you!

The Mize Family said...

Hey Kelly! Adonia shared your blog with me. Congratulations on your sweet boy! My prayers are with you! We have a blog for our adoption...mizeadoption.blogspot.com. I'm excited to be able to stay connected. Karey Mize :-)

The Smittys said...

Kelly, I can only imagine the emotions you are feeling right now, what joy to hold your little one. Soon soon, I keep telling myself! You are such an inspiration to me. I admire your love for our Lord and your dedication to study His word. I need to be more like that. I am so glad you are thinking on and thankful for all that He has brought you from, it is such an overwhelming feeling when we see what He has done in and through our lives that once were so ungodly. I pray I can feel the appreciation for that again soon. I hope you are doing well, blessings on you mommy!!! Love you sister. Emily