Meditate

Today I watched something in a video and I was so tempted to sit down and text several of my dearest friends who are going through a hard time. But then, I thought to myself, no, there are too many to text and there is too much to tell, I'll email them, yes I'll email them, I'll even "blind cc" their names because many of them are not even aware of the other's massive struggle. But then I logged on and thought......no.....I'll put it all in a blog! Because see, here is what I know and what I am learning, WE ARE ALL STRUGGLING in one way or the other. Sure we can all say, "well at least we don't have it as bad as so-in-so". Today I was struggling and J and I were talking and I said "well, I know I am blessed, I mean, especially in light of HAITI"! Well, good gracious, in light of Haiti, no one is allowed to even have a bad hair day much less a bill or health problem! But here is the thing, WE DO! We do have problems and just to be women, we even do have bad hair days, but the question is, what on earth are we going to do with them? And Beth Moore (well Jesus really) looked me in the eye today and told me the answer, "meditate"! She said that we usually and by nature, meditate on the problem, which is what I have spent most of this day doing. Maybe I wonder sometimes if I don't think constantly think about my checkbook, who will? Maybe I think if I just roll over and over in my head about how we have to have a different job that one will fall out of mid air. Maybe that's you?? Maybe you (and so many of you I know your struggles and I am even tempted to do this for you) think that if you take your eye or your mind off of your problem that somehow you are screaming to the world that it is not really there. And I am betting that scares you half to death like it scares me! I must FIX IT! Some how, some way, I MUST fix it, but I just can't!

Only Jesus can fix my problem and I am certain that only He can fix yours as well! They are too big, if they were simple, we would have done it ourselves, but we can't. But we do have a part, we do have a role in this battlefield of the mind and that my friends is to meditate. Beth used Joshua 1:8 "Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful."

Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your MOUTH, step one, not even just your mind, your mouth! Girls we have got to get a verse for our current issue and if we have to repeat it 4 1/2 million times a day then so be it. Step two, day and night! So often people think I am "oh so super spiritual" (and legalistic) because I listen to only Christian or watch only Christian or blah, blah, but you need to know it is only because I seem to always be that desperate. I just only have so many hours in a day and usually (not always) but a sermon is going to do this flesh a lot better than a movie and a Jesus song needs to be pumping through my veins or I am bound to get off track. I love me some HGTV just like the rest of the world, but I have to chose to meditate on the Word more often than the world. Finally, step three, "so that we will be careful to DO everything that is written in it"! There have been many times in my life that I was doing the wrong thing because I didn't know the right. Even recently I have read Scripture and thought to myself, oh no, I am off and I need to redirect!

And then my sweet friends, can you all repeat after me the "then" of this "if, then verse", THEN YOU WILL BE PROSPEROUS AND SUCCESSFUL! Alrighty, I pick that! No questions, I want to prosper and be successful. If you don't, well, I can't offer you anything else! I want to take this world by storm for Jesus' name and renown. The thoughts that run through my mind about Haiti alone would change history, but I will never do any of those if I am sitting in my very own pitty party complaining about money! I have to meditate on the promises of God for me and my life, trusting that if I do my part, HE WILL DO HIS!

So for me...........
"I am still confident of this,
I WILL see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living"

Wait for the Lord
Be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord"
Psl 27:13-14

and I just had to share Miss Beth's

"You are the foundation
on which we stand today.
You always save us and give
true wisdom and knowledge.
Nothing means more to us than obeying you."
Isaiah 33:6

She also talked about how in order to reach our inheritance, it would always involve kicking someone else OUT. I bet you gals can guess, just who that someone else is! There may be only one thing that ranks high on my list of things to-do after glorifying God and that is kicking satan's butt! He has stolen your land and he is attempting to make you too defeated to move forward in gaining it back! You meditate on truth and you WILL prosper and be successful! Your families and your men WILL come to know and worship the Lord! You will (and I will) have babies! You will see them grown into fine young ladies! And you will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! Be strong and take heart and wait on the LORD!

I love you all!
To the ones I know who are suffering-
K

HIJACKED!!!! HAPPY 30TH BIRTHDAY KELLY!!!!!

Hey blogworld - This is Kelly's wonderful husband that she talks about from time to time. I've hijacked her blog momentairly. I just wanted to wish my beautiful wife a Happy 30th Birthday! I love you more than you'll ever know. So for those of you out there who read her blog please feel free to leave my lovely bride birthday wishes. If you do I promise I won't tell her you forgot. Ha! I love you Boog.

What I love about you..................

Several people have used this super cute idea to remember sweet things about their babies. Usually at little "birthdays" or "birthweeks", but I am just doing it so that I don't dare forget these sweet things. Especially after our trip to WalMart today when I almost bought a spatula and "went to the bathroom"! Let's focus on the positives, ok, ok!

I love it when we are driving along and you get this super excited whisper and you start saying, tractor, tractor, tractor.

I equally love when you get so excited that you just HAVE TO bite something. I so want to teach you not to bite, but it is so darn cute! You are like your mama, passionate about life! hahahha

I love it when you say "a cara" "a car" over and over in a parking lot as if it were your first real live car to ever see!

I love it when you are such a boy and care nothing about "small talk" with friend and you go off and ram something with a car. You have that boy nature so deep in your blood and it is adorable to watch.

I love it when we say the word school and you say "cho cho" because there is a train at your school and that's really all you care about!

I love the look on your face when you see your Granddaddy! Priceless!

And last, but certainly not least, I love you in this picture in the bathtub with your friends. That face has melted my heart forever!

Mommy's Boy!

Update................

You guys are such awesome prayer warriors. Nothing makes me smile more than one of you asking to please please update ASAP. Shawnna's surgery went AWESOME! They didn't start until much later in the day so we didn't get a final "out" until like 9:00 last night. I am certain a prayer for her family's strength would be much appreciated. Also, we still need to pray for her liver to be fully renewed as the chemo has killed the cancer but done some damage to her liver as well. Also, there are still some traces of cancer in her bones so please pray for those to literally DISAPPEAR. Finally, as you can bet, this sweet friend has fought literally for her life for years now. I keep thinking of that verse, Ish 40:31 "But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." That, to me, sums up what our prayer should be for Shawnna. She has 3 young girls to raise, a house hold to run, income to make, and I am assuming a cancer fighting diet to stick to without waiver. God is going to give her the grace to do all of these things and to do them well. We cannot understand how someone has walked in her shoes because we have not received that grace ourselves. But HE is faithful to provide! Let's pray that she, like never before in her entire life, puts all of her HOPE in the Lord! I love you guys and I am so thankful for your prayers!!!!!!!!!!!

K

Miracles happening and more needed to come.......

Hey everyone, so sorry I have not given you an update on my dear friend Shawnna sooner, but things have all happened rather quickly and I am just now stopping to post. First, Jesus, you are soooooooooooooo good! Her scan showed that her liver is totally cancer FREE! That is a miracle my friends and for so many of you who have lost loved ones to cancer, you know that I mean MIRACLE! I don't want to lessen that miracle, but along with it comes a quick request for another one needed and lots and lots of prayer. They did find a very small spot on her brain and as I am becoming more of an expert on cancer than I ever remotely wanted to be, that means surgery and surgery fast. She goes in tomorrow morning and should have her surgery closer to lunch. Obviously any time surgery and brain are in the same sentence it is serious, but they have said that unless there is a complication it should be a "minor" surgery (if there is such a thing referring to the brain). So ladies (and gentlemen if you are out there) let's hit it! Our knees I mean! Pray for Shawnna spiritually, physically, pray for her family, for her girls and for those awesome doctors and nurses to be on their A game! I love you all and the way you have cared for Shawnna as most of you are "strangers" to her physically, but not one bit spiritually!

Because of Him,
Kelly

Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Do you hear that noise? You are right, it is complete silence. Snick has a slight snore going on and the sound machine is buzzing the house down, but other than that I am sitting in complete and utter silence. These moments have become so precious to me. I would have to say that is the hardest transition for me as a parent, needing life to stop yet someone demanding that it didn't. I am an extrovert who married an introvert and have been either slightly (or largely) influenced. Or it could be just the fact of the marriage and kiddo alone, but I need more of this and I am not seeming to get it! I find myself looking back, longing often for the glory days of coming home to an empty house, watching HGTV for hours and snacking on cerealish things for a wholesome dinner. Yet all the while I am trying to remind myself that what I have now, was what I longed for then. I find myself thinking that the greatest gift for me personally would be a hotel room, all alone, with cable, internet, and maybe yummy room service, well while we are dreaming let's pray the hotel has a spa and that it is all free. Oh, well, the sweet hubs just walked in the door so the moment has ended. I so enjoyed sharing it with you all! Nite Nite!

K

M and M's

I thought I would start a new fun set of posts called the M and M's.............

Mature Mom Moments

Figured we could all have a few good laughs at the expense of ME, nothing new really!

Before I get going though my heart is so heavy for a dear friend of mine. She has posted this info on her blog, but I am still going to leave out her name just to protect their private heart ache. She and her husband have been going through years of infertility and began the journey of adoption this past year. She was one that I posted about who finally had an adoption that was complete. They had 2 "matches" fall through very late in the game so we were all rejoicing to say the least. Well, it all came tumbling down this past week and on New Year's Day while the rest of the world was celebrating, they were driving the sweet baby back to his birth mother. Obviously in adoption there is pain on all sides so please pray for the entire situation, but selfishly, my friends are heart broken and I would do just about anything to make all their pain end! If you are reading sweet friend, your M and M moments will come and you will post them and they will embarrass you to death, but you won't mind because your heart's desire will be fulfilled! Our God WILL bless you! I know it!

So, the other day I was a little stressed. Let's just start there. I think I was trying to get out the door early. Jeremy was being............well.........I don't know how to say this nicely so I will stick with human, not perfect. And I was being a big selfish brat. I was wanting him to tend to my every need and not caring less about any of his. So, he leaves for work, I am running around the house trying to get everything together and Cross is in lala kid land, eating some dry Cherrios in the living room which were SUPPOSED to be a mess free breakfast ON PURPOSE might I add. (Wow that was a long sentence) So, I run through the room and look over and he has dumped the bowl out everywhere!!!!!!!! You can probably imagine how I am feeling at this point. So instead of killing him I say "young man, you better pick every one of those up" and then he TURNS to start picking them up and I hear like ten crush under his feet. So......here comes the mature mom moment, I say "Oh Sh_t" in an attempt not to totally scream and freak out! Lovely, I know, but it gets better. My sweet child that is learning words (not many but a few) every day says in the sweetest voice you have ever heard in your entire life, you guessed it, "Oh Sh_t". Lovely, good job mom! I smiled and prayed that God would not have him repeat that to me daily and got a dust pan and a broom!

So, here's your chance. Have you done something so incredibly immature this week? Have you thought to yourself, great job mom, real mature! If so, please give us all a good laugh and yourself a bunch of grace! It happens, praise the Lord not any more often!

Promising to try not to CUSS this week, good golly,
K

Had to add some sweet photos as well, just for good measure! And I promise, he is still totally passy free, those are from these past few months! So sweet!