Words too hard to say or type....................

I never dreamed these words would ever come out of my mouth or have to endure the key strokes it is taking to type them, but I must tell you all to start the prayer warring! SHAWNNA'S CANCER IS BACK! There I said it, it took everything in me to get the words out of my mouth last night to my small group without crumbling into a million pieces! By God's grace I have managed to be super strong with her over the phone and then breaking down once I hit end. I guess if she reads this post, my secret is out! For prayer warriors, this is literally all I know as of now, that it has moved into her liver and she is supposed to start chemo again this morning. There have been some other complications over the weekend with her body not responding to the like 5 pints of blood they have given her, but as of now I don't know any test results from that particular complication. All I really know is that we must pray. Please remember she has 3 children, is a single mommy, and now can't work, so that gives you a little list to begin with!

I have to share with you something the Lord showed me yesterday as I am sure many of your chins are on the ground as well, asking what I have been asking all weekend, or honestly, too shocked to even put into words, "Why God why?" Well, yesterday in church God very gently reminded me of something that I never ever want to forget. I am going to type the words to the song below, but I am asking you to sing the words as a prayer, that YES we are asking for another miracle, but NO, we are not for one second allowing this to shake the implications of the words to this song! He has ALREADY paid it all and we are the only ones who stand on the end of owing!

Because of Him,
K

Jesus paid it all, all to Him I owe, sin had left a crimson stain, HE washed it white as snow! Sin had left a crimson stain, He washed it white as snow!

Oh praise the one who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead, oh praise the one who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead. Oh praise the one who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead, oh praise the one who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead! JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shall we never forget that He has already paid the debt and raised Shawnna up from the dead! May we fall at the feet of Jesus in honor for this miracle He has done in every believer's life and let everything else just be icing on the cake!

Forgive me Jesus for doubting that you are good!